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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Friday, December 29, 2006 1:33 PM
have anyone thought, why is that parents must lie to us? why is it that they will have to lie to us about their mistakes? sometimes i wonder what good will it do to them if they were to be able to lie to us forever. why is it that they do not think of how we felt when we know the truth.

i found out some truth about my family on the 23rd. just a day before i went for my xmas eve service. and xmas eve service was a blow to me. because the topic was related to me. somehow, i was staying at my sister's house for about 6days. and there was that night when my sister told me that actually my parents were not married. and i start to ponder, why is it that they have to commit adultery which is a sin against God? against the God that i believe in? and it makes me feel that i'm a bastard. cuz the one who bore me was considered a third party to my dad's family. why is it that my family have to be so complicated?

i found some truths when i was young. but it did not affect me much. but through this facts, i realised that my dad have no obligation to take care of me. and i promise, from now onwards, i'm going to be independent. i face them with guilt. but i know i have a heavenly Father who will take care of me. and guide me through my life.